Shadow Ban

Does anyone think Google is shadow banning my site? It seems to be some method they use to hide sites from searches. When I search for my site (or posts), it rarely comes up. Even when I search - orlandoer. I'm the only one. It should be first. Or at least on the first page. It never shows up. Even if I use quotation marks. I think the only people who read this are ones that were on the mailing list pre- shadow ban. Let me know if I'm wrong and you have found this site through a search and if it was a Google search. Or ask them to un-ban the site.